At the end of the June, I was prompted by my Spiritual Support Team to take a look in an old stagecoach trunk. The trunk had been the repository for all of my mementos from my first marriage, my teaching career, and of the manuscripts I had written as well as the many journals I had written in since then. I felt that it was time to clean out the trunk and release all that had happened, so I could truly begin a new book of my life. When I went into the trunk, I found myself reading old love letters, cards from people I hadn’t seen in years, and snippets of my journals. Suddenly, I was immersed in a terrible grief. It was if all the sadness I’d lived through was up over my head, threatening to take me away.
Thankfully, as always, God sent an Angel to help me in the form of my dear friend Dee Curci (Blessed Foundation Founder). She called just at the right moment and was able to help me recognize what was happening. I had opened Pandora’s box. A box filled with old versions of me and in opening this box, I had been caught. Dee wisely suggested a different course then simply throwing it all away in garbage bags. She suggested I create a sacred ritual to honor and send off with love all the old stories of me.
Everything came together on June 29, 2013 (my wedding anniversary with my first husband) to have the sacred event. We built a fire at the Blessed Foundation, lighting incense, playing the drum, and burning sweet grass and sage. Slowly, through the next three hours we fed my former lives to the flames, asking that only the love and wisdom remain, and releasing all else to God.
During the process, some very clear messages were shared. At one point, a yellow paper fell out of a journal at my feet. Written in bold, all capital letters, was the phrases YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL. STAY OUT OF IT!
Later, a journal burned down slowly highlighting three words…Be Who You Are.
Dee and I roasted marshmallows over the flames, laughing and sharing until it was all burned down to ash.
Thunder rumbled in the distance, but the storm held off until I had finished my labyrinth walk, barefoot and free from the past versions of me. It was the perfect ending, bringing me back to the present moment and the Nancy I am now.
I believe we are all entering a new “book” of our lives now. Consider creating your own sacred ceremony to celebrate all the “You’s” of your life so far, so you can carry forward only the love and learning, letting the rest go to God.
Wishing you all much love and blessings!